100th Post =)

ok, so lets make this post a lil' more meaningful(since all the rest didn't really make sense. heh.).

i think there's something wrong with me, like i'm having this major mood swing right now. its like i wanna luagh, i wanna smile, i wanna cry, i wanna shout.... all at the same time. i duno, its weird.

& i realised something today... it's hard to smile when you know it won't mean anything to the other person. its hard to smile when you know that person won't smile back, much less take notice of that smile. its hard to smile when you know it won't make a difference. it's hard to smile when you know you can't turn back time, & you cant undo the things you've done...

after all, how much can one single smile do? when innocent people are hurting, are suffering... i wanna change all this... but what can i do? smile? really, how much younger i am then anyone reading this, im not that naive... wishing by itself that all this will change, really only exists in fairytales. & perhaps its just too bad reality isn't a fairytale...

lalalalalala.

today we had early dismissal. yayness. =)

& we had to leave the sch premises cause of the listening comprehension. see how nice we are to our sec 4 seniors. hehx. XP

we had home econs. made chicken burger. mmmm... turned out very nice. =) suprising right? haha... i don't consider myself a wonderful cook so, BIG accomplishment. ahahahaha... ok, nvm, you can ignore me, i'm just being lame.

so bored... nothing interesting really. just posting for the sake of posting... i wanna go PA... waahh... jou teng didnt go either last week... -shrug-

hmmm... 25 more days till my bdae. =) i shall patiently wait... lalalala...

hyperness. =)

omg, im so hyper now. haha... today... hmmm... lessons were boring as usual... & then we had math class at 3. damn... but being the oh-so-guai lil' girl -puke-, i decided to listen. i mean seriously listen & do my work. you guys fainted yet? haha...

so before lesson we had like 1 & a half hrs? i think, about there. so all of us slacked. =). yayness...we ate lunch in school then stoned... laura went off to do her eng paper & apparently the paper wasn't there(becuase our WONDERFUL form teacher had forgotten to place it in the library), so she came back to class fuming. haha...

i went with her to look for our form teacher then gave up after she didn't answer the intercom like 3 times. urgh... so we went back to class, & decided we should go cheers. yay... haha... ups, bought ice-cream & a packet of chip. & later andrea helped me run down to the store to buy coke. =) thanks yeah!

we brought back the food to eat in class. slacked even more in class. & then our math teacher just had to arrive like 5 mins earlier. humph. make me lose 5 mins slacking time. urgh...

& since you know im not exactly the type who listens during math lessons. so i guess i'll just listen to him now... damn, his voice is loud. i wonder if the sec 4's can hear it. he's like practically shouting. -roll eyes-

yeah, so that's it. =)

dumdedumdedum...

yayness, had mocha blast today! mmm... so in love with it. =). tuition was so fun today. (1st time you heard that from a kid of 12 huh. haha...) we were doing the mindmap thing & we were all like scribbling & colouring all over it. & luaghing all the way =). haha, & emily was singing this song when jessica started colouring over what she had wrote. damn funny, luaghed until my stomach hurt. hahx...

i'll be 13 in... 34 days... i think... erm, ya. to be honest, i'm nt exactly looing forward to it cuase it's on a school day which means i can't go out with my friends. humph... i hope nobody remembers it on that day... as in my classmates, so i won't turn all red if they sing the birthday song like so loudly in school that the other classes can hear it. omg, the thought of it just freaks me... urgh...

whoa, i've lived through 13 years. i amaze myself. haha... i miss when i was little. i mean, in kindergarden, all you ever had to care about were the toys & the playing. & the 1st person who approached me would be my friend instantly. & the two of us would chat all day without anything to worry about. & every moment would just be of smiles. perhaps a few teardrops, but it seemed so wonderful then...

like i didn't have to worry about my studies, my schools, or whatever... if life was that simple...

dotx.

i haven't been posting in ages. awww, i miss my blog... =)

sunday went to PA with jou teng. poor lily, fell from the stilts. ouch. we watched the NDP people practise, the dance quite cute. hahars... after that stoned, & went to practise the drum...

err... then today, had dance practise in the PAT cuase they having oral in the hall... so sad, i miss the hall. really, it'more fun having dance practise in the hall than PAT. heh... practise the dance then went out to practise the drums again. shermin was damn hyper. i mean she was like jumping on karen & me, then started throwing christine's book around. -__-"

but whatever...

what he did to me..
i mean, yeah, he's a stranger,
but i can't help feeling betrayed...
was he that desperate?
to do something like that?
to me?
& i know i should tell somene...
but who?
i really don't know who i can trust anymore...


lalalalalas...

okok, so i'm back to post cuase some... wait, alot of people complained i haven't been posting for very long. yups, so here i am. say thk eu people. =)

jou teng has been pestering me non-stop to go PA. so, being the oh-so-nice person i am, i'm going with her this sunday. =) haha...

i was just thinking, someday there'll be this perfect mp3... haha... it'll play whatever song that suits my mood. & while the music is playing, the music video will play on the screen. =) with the lyics moving in one line at the bottom. with the background changing with the tunes of the song.

omg, way cool. ahahaha...